Thursday, September 30, 2004
Although I'm still a constituent,
it's just disparate feeling.
A different designation I'm given,
with foreign parameters to reside in.
'We' gradually evaporated in insentience,
to a millieu where 'us' no longer exists.
Your presence is still unequivocal,
though it's your silhouette I see betwixt mist.
My aptitude forbids relinquishing,
I revel in our reminiscence everyday.
Time compels me to acclimate to factuality,
But in history's solace I'd rather stay.
You may seem contiguous,
but tangibly, you're gone.
Forever used to be for only me and you,
I'll live my phantasm in a song.
10:19 PM
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
I feel like crying.
I've never been this thwarted before.
I'm a thickheaded idiot.
5:13 PM
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
The perception that divides you from her is a lie
For some reason you never asked why
This is not a black and white world
You can't afford to believe in your side
10:40 PM
All I ask is to spare a thought for me.
Sometimes I do feel the abhorrence of being
in a school different from my clique of friends.
You just can't seem to assimilate anywhere.
Not that I loathe my current school.
In fact, I quite like the people there.
I've made a number of superb friends as well.
Be that as it may, I'm still a protuberance.
Just unbefitting and out of place..
Who I am to you, might not be who I am.
My masquerade's peeling off.
I'm rather dog-tired of holding the facade up,
I wanna divulge the bona fide persona in me.
But in life's cabaret?
The show still carries on.
In wretchedness.
1:28 AM
Monday, September 27, 2004
I think I'm jealous.
:|
11:41 PM
Sunday, September 26, 2004
"is it dawn, dawn me or like dawn and dusk dawn?"
ermmm.. okay hun.
What's the diff between "dawn" and "dawn me"?
That I really cannot distinguish.
And I doubt I'm a morning sky fanatic either.
Anyway, I miss
DAWN LEE.
Does that answer your question?
Haha. Meet me soon, okay? :)
2:35 PM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Does anybody want do date me next friday?
I'm in desperate need to shop!! :|
oh, and I dreamt of Sasa last night.
Hmmmmmmm..
Pardon the incoherence. :D
7:45 PM
Blogs do not divulge authencity,
but showcases a masquerade of prose.
There are a myriad of expressions
which I would like to make known.
But due to anonymous spectators,
it's sagacious to have it suppressed.
In the cabaret of life,
I'll just feign along with the rest.
7:21 PM
Courtesy or Truth.
Which is better a rejoinder?
Which do your ears want to heed?
Which articulation is more apposite?
Which would be your proclivity?
Under truth's agony or a bag of fibs?
7:09 PM
Sometimes I wish you'd spare some thought for me.
I'm privileged and
very much gratified
that you bother to ask, when others don't.
Maybe the invitation is for you to dawdle time away,
be that as it may, I've always reveled in your company.
Really. Thank you for that. :)
But nonetheless,
I'm still in the course of my Prelims,
which I've not been concentrating much on.
Not that it was mandatory for me,
I just do not possess the aptitude of snubbing.
For 5 more days.
Let's wait till then. :)
6:55 PM
Friday, September 24, 2004
I submit no excuse.
If this is what I have to do
I owe you every day I wake.
If I could I would shrink myself
Sink through your skin to your blood cells
remove whatever makes you hurt
but I am too weak to be your cure.
Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was
the part I must have missed.
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I'm not writing my goodbyes.
Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.
11:00 PM
Everybody has got their somebody to love.
Where's mine? :|
I miss dawn.
10:52 PM
I'm just a nobody in the masquerade of somebody
8:25 PM
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
I love Andrea Hui.
How can I not?
She's Andrea. :)
11:00 PM
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
The 3 things I really want to do right now :
1. Spend time with Sem.
2. Shop for new clothes.
3. Study. (I need to)
I'm fucking unhappy.
11:21 PM
Top 3 most visited Websites :
1. Blogs
2. Hotmail
3. Friendster
TOP 3 Favourite Songs On Playlist :
currently
1. Sick Cycle Carousel
2. This I swear
3. Beautiful Soul
TOP 3 Favourite Food :
1. Dark Chocolates
2. Squid!
3. Vegetables :D
TOP 3 Favourite Snack :
1. Gummies
2. Fruits
3. Chips
TOP 3 Indoor activities :
1. Watching the tele
2. Online
3. Reading
TOP 3 Outdoor activities :
1. Basketball
2. Shopping
3. Movies
TOP 3 Accessories (That You Own) :
1. Wrist band
2. Watch
3. Choker
TOP 3 Major Expenses :
1. Food
2. Clothes
3. Presents
TOP 3 Personalities Of Your Own :
1. Daft
2. Paradoxical
3. Occasionally reticent
Top 3 Most Important People :
1. Sem
2. Family
3. Friends
Top 3 Favourite Hangout Places :
1. Home
2. Town
3. Sem's
Top 3 Brands That I Like :
1. Guess
2. Fcuk
3. Actually, I'm not materialistic :|
Top 3 Things You Do Everyday :
1. Watch the tele
2. Send at least 1 sms.
3. Online
Top 3 Things You Say To Someone :
1. Hello
2. Okay
3. Bye
Top 3 Favourite Colours :
1. Brown
2. Purple
3. Green
Note that these are arranged in random order.
10:31 PM
Sunday, September 19, 2004
My birthday gifts this year
are encapsulated into one word.
------ C u t e . :)
Received..
-
Sasa : A Winnie the Pooh box filled with candy
which she has finished half of.
-
Dawn : Really adorable stuffed monkey
which I seriously thought was a puppy.
-
Xinying : This huge Paul Frank pillow
that occupies a quarter of my bed.
Thank you beri beri much.
I love them
a lot. :D
10:04 PM
Another schtick of a recrudescence.
The aptitude of eschewal seems unattainable.
Every atom of affection is gnashing my skin with
relentless insinuation of what will never materialize.
An insignificant succedaneum,
that I know I am, and will always be.
My Achilles' heel?
I fall too easily.
For
you.
1:43 AM
True,
I do love Sem more than anything else.
But Sem,
you should just tell that to him.
then it wouldn't be a triangle anymore.
RIGHTT? :P
1:03 AM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Every year, this date.
The events are scarcely remembered.
Maybe because most of it is inconsequential.
And inexplicably,
All I can ever recollect is,
tears would always materialize.
This year, is unquestionably no different.
BUT this year is a little disparate.
Of all my years of education,
I was held back for detention.
TODAY. :|
So much for having smth to retrospect on.
2:53 PM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Cher.
Thanks for going all the way to town,
making your way all the way to my house,
just to pass me the cheese n mooncakes.
I'm gonna be fat on my birthday now la. :|
Hahaha. But seriously,
No one would ever do such a feat for me.
And I genuinely appreciate everything.
I'm touched. (:
Since when were you this sweet anyway?
Hahaha. =x
Sorry I was such a lousy host,
especially to have let you wait while I slept.
Heh. Anyway, was glad to see you today.
You do look much better.
We'll catch up after Os, yes?
Study hard, my dear sweet girl.
I miss you quite a hell bit too.
Sigh, ohwell.
Thanks again, for all the effort.
I love you. (:
8:08 PM
I was walking home from tuition,
msging Mr Shagtastic Darren.
Eyes focused on my handphone,
but the corner of my eyes acknowledged 2 metal poles.
Brain identified it's an attachment to a roadsign.
Instinctively, I started to lower my head,
then I realised..
"What am I doing?
My head will never touch the signboard la!"
Belle is indubitably fatuous. :|
4:42 PM
I just realised that the people whereby
Chemistry is mutually shared between us,
are the people I can never fall in love with.
Why?
2:30 AM
One thing I loathe abt my grandmother :
She's
ALWAYS awake during atypical hours,
calcifying me with stunned trepidation.
Especially when I'm studying at the hours of midnight.
Almost every night, without fail.
She'd skulk up the stairs noiselessly,
as if she's like some surreptitious soul
and enter my room and suddenly call.. "beerr."
It's just fucking traumatizing and bloodcurdling. :|
(That's how she calls me by the way, she ain't drunk)
Or else, it's when I bizarrely wake up
at the very crack of dawn during the weekends.
The first thing my eyes would see
is a silhouette standing moitionlessly by the window.
And I'd be jumping outta my skin, tumbling to the floor.
It's just fucken petrifying la.
She did it again tonight.
And I'm going to
bed now
to placate my invigorating heartbeats.
I hate human geography. (of no relevance)
2:06 AM
Standing by my window,
waiting for your call.
Seems I really miss you, afterall.
Time won't let me keep
these sad thoughts to myself.
I just like to let you know,
I wish I never let you go.
I'll always love you.
Deep inside this heart of mine,
I do love you.
I'll always need you.
And if you ever change your mind,
I'll still, I will love you.
1:38 AM
I'll never be involved in your life,
like how I anticipate myself to be.
What we've always shared is merely ephemeral.
Good, but transient.
I'm still a bystander afterall.
1:35 AM
Monday, September 13, 2004
School has finally commenced today.
Everyone else are having their prelims now.
And I guess it's time for me to swot up on my work.
Thus I think I'd reduce my visitations online
until my prelims are officially over,
which would be the 30th of September.
Fuck.
If you need to contact me,
my phones are never switched off.
Okay, cramming time now.
Wish me luck, cause it's gonna be of great usage. :)
6:34 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
My dad and I are on conversational terms again.
Well, sort of I guess.
Perhaps it's good, maybe for the better.
yea, to only the rest of my family.
I've no clue really.
Now I just have to anticipate the day
where we're gonna another tumultuous dispute,
another obliteration of some constituent of the house,
another incitement to repugnance,
another time where he's gonna banish me outta here.
When that time arrives,
whose house is available for my ephemeral lodging??
6:13 PM
I'm apprehensive, disquieted, whatever.
If there's anything I could do,
I would, beyond a shadow of a doubt.
Hold you close with assurance,
embrace you tight with comfort,
listen intently with understanding,
anything at all.
Then again,
since when was belle capable of such endowment. :|
I'd trade almost anything,
to have you be alright again.
2:58 PM
I'm the king of wishful thinking.
2:50 PM
I fear you may have perceived erroneously.
I was never quite close to her to begin with.
She's just incredibly dear to me.
Despite the blemishes imbued in her.
It may not be reciprocal,
but since when was love ever an equilibrium?
Nonetheless, it does not diminish anything.
Dub me inequitable if you might,
my concern does not end here.
2:40 PM
Saturday, September 11, 2004
So, my tuition was annulled.
And nobody informed me of the change of plans.
I fucking
abhor rushing.
and they just had to push it.
I was given less than 10mins to accommodate to them.
Well fine, no deliberation was connived.
Maybe nobody knew or assumed I was aware.
THEN.
When I finally had gotten ready to leave.
All that hastening was futile.
Fucking futile.
My sis's tuition was annulled as well.
Nobody bothered, again, to tell me
that I do not need to hustle anymore.
Splendid aye?
Adrenalin just had to be made to surge through me,
instigating angst and gratuitous annoyance.
So now, everyone's taking their fucking time,
enjoying dawdling in front of the television.
What a happy family.
Yes, I'm knowledgeable of how bitchy I am.
My sis will read this and cuss at me too.
I'll shut up and leave now.
Now, I shall smother my exasperation,
and put on a smile for merser. :)
Let's just hope the day ends fine.
4:06 PM
Wonder what the rest are up to.
Studying most probably.
That's an inane question.
Tuition's in an hour,
and I've not completed my assignments.
Heading down to the club later,
meeting
merser there!!
Like finally, I can get to see her.
Missed that silly girl so much. :D
Gonna assist her in Chem.
LOVE chemistry.
And no, Chemistry are not for geeks, Omar. :|
Oh, and don't you just adore Leandra? :)
2:06 PM
ANDREA HUI!!
What's wrong with you?!
What copycats?! Hahaha.
Don't tyPe yoUr bRouHahA hEre hoRx.
Study too muChX liAoZx aRz?
ReStrAin YouRselF lA.
You schizohrenic.
Hahahaha.
Aye! I miss you la! :|
PLEASE END YOUR PRELIMS SOON.
Shit, then i'll have mine. :(
Ahh, whatever it is,
Spend time together soon, yes?!
You still owe me supper! :D
1:55 PM
Friday, September 10, 2004
I dreamt of a girl last night.
I didn't do anything to her,
except to slice her throat.
It was bad.
Hahahaha. My cousin is damn cute la!
10:41 PM
How do you feel about life right now?
Damn hell hectic.
Do you know ur best friend's friendster
password?
Apparently SHE doesn't trust me.
Do you think long distance relationships
works?
Sure.
Are you an emotional person?
That's an understatement.
If u had one last breath to say something to
someone u love what would u say?
Don't miss me too much! :D
Do you believe in best friends?
Erm.
Ever felt so jealous of your friend?
YES.
What was the last thing you did other then
typing?
Talk to my brother.
Who's right next to you?
It's the 7th month, what do you think?
Who was the last person you ate out with?
Emily, Cheryl and Carm.
How many buddies do you have on your list
in friendster?
Don't know.
How's the weather right now?
Like every other day.
Last person you spoke to on the phone?
MERSER!! :D
Last Person who text you?
My cousin.
Last person you texted?
My cousin la.
Lost a friendship over something stupid?
What's considered stupid?
Tongue-Kissed someone?
Yes.
Smoked?
Yes. smokED.
Pissed someone off before?
All the time :|
Been really depressed before?
Hah, of course.
Faked being sick to miss school?
Almost every week. hehe.
Last time you said 'I love you'?
If verbally, in a VERY VERY long time.
What time did you wake up today?
11 i think.
Current Taste:
Brown vogue.
What's your ringtone?
Jet - Are you gonna be my girl
Age?
16 soon.
What are you wearing right now?
Sexy underwear. Hah.
Who do you consider your closest/bestest
friend?
I choose not to answer that.
Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
Depends.
Best way to start the day?
To hear Sem's voice. :|
Best way to end the day?
To receive swt msges frm someone special.
Kisses or Hugs?
Be generous, and give me both. :P
What is the first thing you notice about the
opposite
sex?
HAIR.
What is the first thing you think of when you wake
up?
Damn, nobody msged me. Hahaha
How many times do you let the phone ring before
you answer it?
You count and tell me.
Current longing?
That, I'm not telling.
Current desktop picture:
Chad Michael Murray!!! :D
9:59 PM
If your heart's not in it, for real.
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel.
If love's already gone,
It's not fair to lead me on.
Cause I would give the whole world for you.
Anything you ask of me, I'd do.
But I won't ask you to stay,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
3:32 AM
The advices Darren tout me with.
When you go for someone who's not attached,
it's like playing soccer.
Scoring in a goal post with no goalkeeper.
Got boy/girlfriend,
is like a goal post with a goalkeeper.
Still can score.
Hahahahahahaha.
That ripper cracks me up EVERYTIME.
3:11 AM
The very last time I was ensnared in such a predicament,
I swore to myself not to step afoot on this avenue again.
Yet 8months later, I'm back at square one.
The milieu might be slightly disparate,
but I somehow am imbued with the same acuity.
Again, I am completely immersed in inscrutability
regarding the stances in the entire entanglement.
And of course, her authentic sentiments.
I'm just forsaked to oblivion, once more.
I knew the consignment of barricades
that I'd have to contend with,
if I were to permit myself to
plummet nose-down into this farcical impasse.
Yet my fortification is zilch when I'm ard you.
And now I'd have to try and grapple with,
as well as, stifle back my provocative predilection.
This is indubitable excruciation.
sigh.
2:15 AM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
6:22 PM
Okay, I need an elucidation.
Clarify this.
What's with me..
- Hankering after the unfeasible
- Desiderating what does not belong
- Persisting delectable turpitude
- Revelling in apprehension
- Hoping my assumptions are bona fide.
and fully knowledgeable of the fact
that martyrdom is imminent,
yet there's no eschewal on my part.
I'm an indubitable dead duck. :|
3:04 AM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
erm, to clear up certain misunderstandings,
yesterday or today or whenever,
is
NOT my birthday.
Thanks for the wishes though. :D
8:05 PM
And I was so glad that our gyration of quarrels
would not occur this year.
Too happy, too soon.
Oh, and Surprise Surprise!
It's my fault,
again.
1:32 AM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Verbatim
Me : Aren't you gonna wish me?!
Darren : I double checked. Today's 7th.
Me : Since when was my birthday not on the 7th?!
Darren : OH OH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! SURPRISE!
Darren : I BET I GOT YOU ON THAT ONE!
Me : who did you double checked it with anyway?
Darren : haha, nevermind that.
Darren : I was just goofing around.
Darren : Of course I knew it's on the 7th!
The things guys say to cover up their faux pas.
Sigh. -shakes head-
But Darren's such a lovable idiot. Swear. :D
11:47 PM
Received 3 presents today!!
1) Mp3 player from Mom.
2) 50bucks and $20 kino voucher from Sis.
3) Some stick jelly thing from Dawn.
I'm a happy girl. :D
10:23 PM
I cut my hair today.
It's really short.
and I don't like it. :(
I want my long hair back.
1:32 PM
Wow. I'm astounded.
Never knew those words could still hurt.
Ouch.
And Darren, you and your
"dere's a ht limit to ppl who want to be asked out by me"
can just die and decompose.
Idiot.
1:26 AM
I abhor the way I'm feeling right now.
This sentiment surging through me.
Somebody please take it away.
Before I break and bleed.
1:02 AM
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY FLO!!!!!
You'll probably never read this entry,
but anyhow, I FUCKING LOVE YOU!! :D
Shit, I seriously miss you so damnit much.
You have no idea at all.
we MUST hang out after Os or whenever.
You, Dor and I.
We'll then celebrate our extremely belated birthdays.
Great huh, spending our birthdays mugging.
Absolutely marvellouso!
You know, there are numerous times
when I wish you could be just round the corner.
If reminiscence could be projected into reality,
I'd definitely bring you back with me.
You're still the one who would
patiently listen to all my kvetches,
my life stories, and of course,
your favourite, my love life!! -___-
I just miss you so much..
Ohwell, we'll meet soon I hope.
Shall keep you in my thoughts meanwhile.
Love you, flo.
despite how irritating you are. HAHA! :D
12:07 AM
Monday, September 06, 2004
Courtesy of dawn.
Does your name start with : I
You have a great need to be loved,
appreciated.. even worshiped.
You enjoy luxury, sensuality,
and pleasures of the flesh.
You like spending necking hours
just touching feeling & exploring.
You look for lovers who know what they are doing.
You are not interested in an amateur,
unless that amateur wants a tutor.
You are fussy and exacting about
having your desires satisfied.
You are willing to experiment and
try new modes of _____expression.
You bore easily and thus require adventure and change.
Your commitments don't last very long
and you often tend to stray.
Loyalty is not one of your strong points.
You are more sensual than sexual
but you are sometimes downright lustful.
Virgos.
Turn ons :
Virgos are very methodical and
have great sense of duty.
but are blind to their own faults.
So if you have a Virgo partner,
emphasize more on their qualities
(as it is they are not going to accept).
Take keen interest in what they are doing and
you will realize that they will
go out of their way to help you.
Do rely and appreciate their mental powers
than physical powers.
They can turn even an unsuccessful venture into a success.
Turn offs :
Do not push a Virgo into limelight or center stage
unless of course they do so on their own.
They are shy and reserved by nature and
do not like to be cynosure of all eyes.
Virgos have secrets that are virtuous
as they would not like to come out in open.
so even if you have the key to their secret skeleton closet,
hide it, do not admit that you know anything about it.
Virgos, the virgins, do not want to tarnish their public image.
Hahahaha! Fascinating aye?? :D
11:26 PM
WOOHOOO.
When was the last time I went out with Sem?
mmmm.. can't remember.
she
FINALLY asked me out today.
A bust to her ego, and a boost to mine. =x
BUT but, I had a
SUPERB time tonight.
Dinner was good due to the company.
Watched Moulin Rouge lying on Sem's bed.
That's
indulgence.
Just reached home not long ago
and Mom was pippin' mad.
No wonder she said Sem's bad influence.
tsktsk, and I'm just kidding. :)
Even if my birthday is to be spent like that,
it'd still be one of the better birthdays I ever had.
Be honoured, Sem. :)
1:57 AM
Any form of change would seem like a threat,
not only to the physical system,
but to the emotional system of this our fragile self.
The source of change seems to be external and not internal,
and yet I say to you,
the key to the changes that are happening
is within everyone's grasp.
It is a matter of recognising that our own perceptions
of what life "should be" are not fixed,
nor carved in granite but are rather like movies
playing in our minds and projected out into reality.
Yet everytime changes take place in our lives,
people feel powerless and they feel as if they need
to look back to the original "authentic" self,
to whom they thought they were.
This process of "going back" or reminiscence,
is a form of healing.
And our healing comes when we realise this fact;
that these perceptions, our own perceptions,
are really what we see being played outside ourselves.
We can irrefutably rewrite our inner "movie" scripts
and change our perceptions with a very different interpretation
of our reality so that our lives are more meaningful and whole.
1:25 AM
Saturday, September 04, 2004
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia
---> Fear of long words.
hello, i'd be scared outta my wits too. :|
11:30 PM
Idled my entire Saturday away again.
I can never spend my weekends at home studying.
It's a riddle I cannot solve.
Ohwell.
Went to bishan for Bak Kut Teh with Cheryl.
Good stuff.
Sasa was supposed to join us for dinner,
but that idiot rather spend time with her family.
Nvm, Cheryl and I still had
Fun.
We actually played reversi at the bubble tea stall
using those ancient chess black and white chips.
She was at my mercy the WHOLE time. HAHA! =x
I loovveee spending time with Cheryl. :D
Anyway, I'm missing somebody tonight..
anyone up for guesses?!
Okay, ignore that. :|
11:20 PM
FACT 1:
- Name: Belle
- Birth date: Unsure.
- Birthplace: Mt Alvernia.
- Current Location: The Study.
- Eye Color: Dark Brown.
- Hair Colour: Mostly black.
- Height: Sensitive issue.
- Right handed or left handed: Right
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FACT 2:
- Heritage: Thai, Peranakan and Chinese.
- Weakness: Ahhh. Too many.
- Biggest fear: undetermined.
- Your perfect pizza: Lotsa Cheese with Green Peppers,
Mushroom, Minced Meat, err.. so on and so forth.
- Goal you'd like: Soccer Goal!
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FACT 3: Your?
- Most overused phrase: -shrugs.
- Thoughts first waking up: 10 more mins?
- Best physical feature(s): Hair.
- Usual bedtime: Variable.
- Most missed memory: First love. (:
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Fact 4: Preferences?
- Pepsi or Coke: Grape.
- McDonald's or Burger King: Macs.
- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestle tea: Lipton
- Chocolate or vanilla: Gotta be Choc.
- Cappuccino or Latte: Cappuccino?
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FACT 5: Do you?
- Smoke: Used to.
- Sing: Definitely.
- Take a shower every day: Without question.
- Have a crush: maybeee... :D
- Think you've been in love: Sure.
- Want to get married: With kids. :)
- Believe in yourself: Sometimes.
- Think you're a health freak: Too far-fetched.
- Get along with your parents: Not Dad. Love Mom. :)
- Like thunderstorms: when I'm sleeping.
- Play an instrument: Piano.
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FACT 6: In the past month, you?
- Drank alcohol: No recollection.
- Gone on a date: NO :(
- Gone to the mall: yup
- Eaten sushi: Yes.
- Been on stage: I have Glossophobia.
- Gone skating: Nope.
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FACT 7:
- Age you hope to be married: 25?
- Number of Children: 2 or 3.
- Names: You'll know then.
- How do you want to die: like I have a choice.
- What do you want to be when you grow up?: An angel.
Actually, I already am. HAHA! =x
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FACT 8: In a boy/girl, you would want?
- Best eye colour: Green-shaded blue.
- Best hair color: Depending on what's suitable.
- Short or long hair: Short.
- Height: No preference.
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FACT 9: List the number of:
- Drugs taken illegally: 20 panadols extra. Drugs what.
- People I trust with my life: Err.
- Piercings: 6.
- Tattoos: Zilch.
- Scars on my body: I'm not that free.
- Things in my past I wanna forget: None.
Every experience is a lesson learnt.
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FACT 10: What..?
-Music are you listening to now?:
Jesse McCartney - Because you live
-Time is it now?: 11.11pm
-Your handphone model?: Nokia 7250, 8850.
-What are the THINGS you treasure the most?:
My pillow and certain msges.
-What is ur fav subject?: It's all about Chemistry.
-subject do you hate the most: I love studying (:
I was bored, okay.
10:47 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
If you were to know me well enough,
I'll never have the aptitude to create this marvel.
At least not when I'm too lackadaisical to do anything.
Anyway, this entry is dedicated to Sem.
The one who actually bothered to generate such beauty.
And, it's just for me.
Thank you, Sem.
I truly appreciate all the work you've put into this.
Especially when prelims are hot on your heels.
Thank you for bothering to take time off just to do this.
It's brilliant.
As for the reason why you did this,
next time, please do not hassle over it.
The thought of acquiring something for me,
is far more than enough. (:
Nonetheless,
Thank you.
And just for records' sake,
despite the distance, despite the 'dissociation',
you were never once off my mind.
As for whether it's a blessing or curse,
I've yet to figure that out.
But I do know that your bliss matters alot to me,
whether it's him or others who has competence to do so,
or whether I'm there to make a fool out of myself
just to slick a little grin up your face.
I've always loved you, Sem.
Despite how much I wish to repress that,
the truth keeps pursueing me.
And if you ever find me apathetic towards you,
it's only because I miss you,
too much.
10:52 PM
Thursday, September 02, 2004
I finally am permitted to blog again.
Had many many thoughts the past few days,
yet blogger was barring me from typing anything in this box.
You have no idea how infuriating that was.
ANYWAY.
Happy Birthday Dearest Andrea. (:
I'm one day late in posting this up,
but nonetheless, hope you did have a happy one.
Though it may have only been a one day modest celebration,
it was fantastic to see you smiling and hysterically laughing.
Thanks to our one and only Changity Chang. Haha.
Well, now it's back to the swotting up phase,
and although your special day has passed,
that exclusive focus will still be concentrated on you.
Always have and will be, from me. (:
I seem to no longer have any more words to say, honestly.
You know far enough how important you are to me.
Hopefully so la. yes? hehe.
And for the many times you put up with my brouhaha,
the many times you seem to appear whenever I needed someone,
the many times you made me laugh when no one else could,
Thank you, tremendously much.
Love you dear, really do.
Have supper soon!! We'll 'ta bao'. hehe.
Until then, will be thinking of you. (:
12:07 PM
